UGH. i can't fall asleep.
i went to bed all early, well kinda, but yah. dang. so what's new.. nothing much really.
except i've been working so much this whole week!
didn't have much of a spring break. but whatevers.. i need the money.
& i guess i'm working 10 days for the next two weeks.
so not much hanging out for me.. boo. working at hotel del is really depressing. you know?
i'm surrounded by all these kids who have their whole life planned out for them.
they get whatever they want, whenever they want, & how they want it.
i mean, they aren't bad kids but it's just feels unfair. it's not that i'm jealous, maybe i am.
but i feel like i have to work wayyy hard to get something.
i mean, thank god i don't really know how to wear make-up.
otherwise i'd be spending a hundred dollars or more on just that.
but you know.. it would be nice to own some mac products or whatever. and..
working two jobs doesn't do the good.
working at the del is great during the summer and holidays.
i do get really good tips but it doesn't really make up for the other days i don't come in.
& i do work as a teacher/child care at church.
but thats only 3 hours every sunday.
& don't get me wrong, i don't mind working there, i actually like both.
but it's just not even close to buying a new car or getting my own apartment. it just feels really depressing to know that someone just bought a new car
or is living on their own
or has the lastest couture outfits and purses
or you know what i mean.. but yah.. & not to mention that these people have all the time in the world.
i mean, how does that happen?!
they don't work, they get everything they want, & get to party?!
... while i have to work and have just the right amount of money to go out to eat. so unfair. but that's life i guess.
& some people are just lucky. so people, take care of your shit and don't take it for granted. | 
